I had something happen to me that was life changing. Just about this same time!! I can not really talk about it because I am not sure how I feel about it. It happened because of the place my life is in and has been in for awhile now.
So today, He calls me and wants to know if I am done??? I dont even know how to feel about that. That is the truth. He left me. He treated me like shit and I treated him like shit. We have not been happy for so long. How can he still want me if HE left??? Things are not what they are supposed to be, he is not who he is supposed to be.
I told him I am not ready for this and I need time to decide what is right for me and my girls. What to do when you give someone your heart and they stomp on it. Can it be gotten back? I just dont know what to think. I know I need to do what I NEED to do and that is it. I know I am vulnerable and I dont want that to be the reason I even talk to him. Missing him is not a reason to be with him because it is not the man that left me that I miss. It is the man that I married and I dont even know if that man exists.
I will not be suckered again. Belive that!!! I am strong and I have my own mind and I will not be suckered again!! Yes I said it twice because I believe it. I believe that if you dont give someone what they want when they want it that the true colors of that person show. I am not going to do what anyone but me wants me to do.
My girls are my TOP priority and having peace in our lives comes before anything else!! Peace is what I hope for!! Peace!!!
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